I recently had an abortion. It was the hardest decision I've ever had to make. I guess safe sex isn't always so safe. When I found out I was pregnant, my boyfriend was so happy. But as a couple weeks went by, he could tell I was getting more miserable as the time passed. He is graduating this year, but I still have another year left, possibly an extra semester too, plus my internship in the summer. I just couldn't throw all of that away, plus it would break my father's heart. I know I wouldn't have any support from my family.
It was hard because the small group of people we did tell all wanted me to keep it. No one even asked me what I wanted. I mean, of course I wanted to keep it just for the fact that I love my boyfriend and we do want to start a family. I just can't do it now. I know that there are other options besides abortion; believe me, it wasn't my first choice, but I couldn't stand that thought of going through everything and having to stop school and then have someone else raise my baby.
I know what I've done has hurt my boyfriend in such a way I will never be able to fix or make up for. It hurts me deeply. He let me decide what I wanted to do. He supported me even though my decision has put us through a great deal of emotional pain.
I love my boyfriend for standing by me, I just hope he will one day forgive me. I would tell other women to follow your heart and do what is best for you and your future. Even if it hurts loved ones, one day it will be better. One day.