i met a person in my field from another country while i was in another country...it was very rare to meet someone who shared the same passions..so much like a soul mate...we could finish eachother's sentences..so it happened...i became full with a lil' soul...but due to realities of my life...aka student loan issues...time issues..the father living in another country issues, etc. i was ideally ready for the soul to become whole but my life wants were still left to be fulfilled...the medical process was painful... the first night from 10pm to 6am I was in the bathroom every five minutes...the second night i fell asleep earlier without much pain...i love him...i love the lil' soul...and i promise to be an organ donor to give life back to the world...and hopefully will be able to give birth to new souls and i am ready.