I grew up in a strong Christian home. I was headed into life in the right direction until I made a few wrong choices, which in turn lead to the worst mistake of my life. While my parents were struggling through their divorce, I sought comfort in the wrong place. At age 17, I clung to an 18 year old guy for comfort when I should have turned to Jesus Christ instead. At age 18, I missed my period one February and just knew I was pregnant.
He didn't want it, and I was terrified. I was extremely selfish and thought about what my family would think instead of how killing the child growing in my womb was wrong. So, we agreed and had it aborted. By doing that I opened the door for Satan to further ruin my life. I didn't feel relieved at all. I felt worse. Not only did I feel like a whore bag-- I was now a murderer. To make the pain worse, my boyfriend at the time would get drunk often and call me a murderer and tell me I was going to hell for killing a child. And as messed up as that was, he was right.
Romans 6:23-For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
I couldn't turn to family or friends. I felt ashamed and dirty. Since then it's been a long, hard road to deal with. He and I actually got pregnant again two years later, and this time I kept my baby. There was no way I was killing another child. The father and I are no longer together, and I am remarried and happy. However, recently this year, I've been compelled by Jesus Christ to get my story out there. I finally told my mother, who was gracious about it.
I can do all things through Christ which strengthen me.
From a personal stand point... if I hadn't taken Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, I don't believe I would be where I am today.
King James Version
24The LORD bless thee, and keep thee:
25The LORD make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee:
26The LORD lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.