I am a 20 year old who has been married for three months and I found out I was pregnant. My husband and I had always said if I got pregnant we would support it, because it was our responsibility; decisions change when the circumstances do.
We are college students in debt, we need to find a more affordable apartment, and I need to buy a new car. Financially, my husband and I could not support the child and we did not want some random family taking it. The decision to have an abortion was hard and I can be the first to tell you that in your heart you hurt and it does break you a little.
The day of the abortion I felt nervous and a little sick because it was something that I was doing in order to save my college education. As I got to the clinic and stepped out of the car, a protester shouted, "Jesus will never forgive you," and that hurt because yes, it's terrible, and no, I don't believe I'll never be forgiven because the lord forgives us for our sins. When the nurse called me into the procedure room and told me to get undressed from the waist down, I took one last moment to say goodbye to my baby and said a prayer for god to forgive me. My supportive doctor and nurses made the experience all the more bearable. Having my husband there to comfort me and hold me after the procedure helped me heal faster.
Emotionally, my heart is a little broken and I have arguments with my husband and mixed feelings; all due to the fact that the emotions inside me are in turmoil. I will tell everyone out there I know that I made the best and most rational choice in my life, but my heart still hurts because it was my baby. Right now I am debating getting pregnant in a few years if I can afford it. I will never be able to replace that baby nor will I forget it. I hope from reading this story women out there realize sometimes we do have to choose between what is realistically feasible and what isn't. Choosing to live isn't always a bad thing, but sometimes it does make us hurt with the hard choices we have to make.