When I found out I was pregnant, I couldn't believe this was actually happening. I told myself this couldn't be real, but, oh, it was very real. At first I did want to get abortion and my boyfriend wanted to keep the baby, and as time went on I wanted to keep the baby and my boyfriend didn't. I had no clue what I wanted to do. I knew that my boyfriend wasn't ready to have a baby in many ways, but I still had that hope that I could have this baby.

I kept my pregnancy a secret from my parents until I was fourteen weeks pregnant ( I know I should have told my parents earlier but I was dead scared of disappointing them). My mom and dad also wanted me to get the abortion done, and at this time I still wanted to have my baby but my thoughts and feelings were all over the place with my boyfriend and my parents telling me I had to get this abortion. My mom called the abortion clinic without asking me if I was OK with it, which really upset me. So the day that I was supposed to get the abortion, the abortion clinic called and said they had an emergency, and they had to rebook me for the 21st and 22nd of this month.

I am finally OK with getting this abortion done. I cannot give my child the life it deserves. I couldn't live with myself if I brought my baby into this world where I can't give him or her anything. I don't want to do this but I have to... it's for the best. One day me and my baby will be together again in a much better time where I can give everything that my little baby needs. This baby will always be a part of me and I will always love him/her.