Speaker's Age: 16
Story Told In: 2008
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My boyfriend and I weren't so responsible in our safe sex practices. I don't know why it was that we didn't use condoms and I wasn't on birth control (even though I had planned to get it a few days before finding out I was pregnant).

My period wasn't late, but I had a feeling that I was pregnant. When I was drinking I would get sick off of only a few drinks and my stomach always hurt and I was always hungry. A week after my missed period, I took a home pregnancy test and it came out positive. I decided to wait to tell my parents until I went to my doctor appointment to get birth control. When I got there I told them what was going on, and they took a test. I had the doctor tell my mom.

My mother took it worse than I had expected. I told her I wanted to keep it and that I would do everything I could for the child and for my future and that I knew it would be hard, but I could do it. She told me to stay with my sister and told my father that night. When I got home, my parents told me that if I wanted to keep it I would have to move out because they couldn't help me. When I told them that I was for sure going to keep it they threatened to put my boyfriend in jail (him being 19 and me a month away from 17) if I did not have an abortion. With that I had no help and I would not be able to raise my child correctly.

My boyfriend at first was kind of excited to have the kid when I told him that's what I wanted to do, though he was scared because he wasn't sure if he could be a good father. When he found out he could go to jail, he changed his mind completely. He didn't think this was the best thing for either of our lives and thought it would be best to terminate the pregnancy.

It was a week ago that I took the abortion pill at exactly six weeks. I regret my decision, but then again, I know that it is not in my best interest right now to have a child. I still feel that it was my responsibility to take care of what I created, and I feel extremely guilty for letting that happen to my child. I'm not sure that I can forgive my parents for pressuring me into this. I am still seeking closure and trying to move on.