This is my story.
I was about six to seven weeks when I found out I was pregnant. I was going to keep the baby then I started thinking that I am so young, I can't do this on my own. I was dating a guy for three years then we broke up and I had sex with another guy... he was just a rebound-- I was not supposed to get pregnant. I didn't know who the father was and the guy I was with for the three years wasn't being very supportive. The rebound guy was being more supportive than the man I loved.
Then I started thinking about the abortion more and more. I was so young and immature. I don't know how to drive... I'm not in college yet. I only have a part time job. Being a mom, going to school and working would be very hard. I couldn't handle all of this and I wanted my baby to have a better life then I had. Every one around me was being very supportive. Even the guy I was dating for three years started talking to me again. He was only nice while I was pregnant and once I got the abortion it all changed again.
I had the abortion only five days ago. You need ID to have an abortion where I am from... they want to make sure you are of age. I forgot my wallet at home and they had to go back and get it. The whole time I thought this a sign from god not to do this. I was so afraid and scared, I just ignored the sign. I went back to see how far along I was. I was nine weeks and five days. They had to dilate my cervix. I didn't know if it was too late to stop it since my cervix was dilating. I was too scared to ask if it was too late and if it was too late, I didn't want nothing wrong with my baby.
I didn't and that's one of the things I regret the most. The whole time the abortion was being done, I wanted to cry. I couldn't believe I was killing my baby. I can't sleep at night. I don't want to eat. I just want to crawl in a hole and die. I know that I was only two months pregnant but that baby was a part of me.
I just have to move on and put this in the past. I want to go to college and get my life started. I want to learn how to drive and have a better life for my self. I'm trying to use this as motivation to become a better person and have a better life. When I'm ready to have a baby, I will be mature enough to handle it and I will be able to take care of my baby better. It would have been hard working at Giant Eagle and being a single mom. In the end, I guess it kinda was worth it. I will not make the same mistake again. I learned from it and now I'm going to get back on birth control and focus on my future life. I'm going to better my self for my future child.
Thanks for listening to my story.